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That certain set of humanity who enjoy the substances that allow us to notice and appreciate things in a different light are a special lot, sobriety can sometimes do that but not often, i fucking dug this post, don’t wince at it (as you’ve mentioned in the next post) i’ve posted many things on the lounge and many were written under the influence of various substances over the years… and though these days we like different drugs the other day i got ripping high on a lovely strain while doing a bunch of yard work and then took a shower, it was one of the best fucking showers ever, it was like standing in liquid electricity without all the harmful side effects, it was beautiful.
Thank you kono. I know writing is supposed to be for writing’s sake (what a load of bollocks, that’s too introverted a view, Western individualism rearing its selfish head again), but it’s a social activity as well and I must say it does give me a little frisson of pleasure when someone unknown (that makes it even better – it gets rid of manners) responds in a way that you sense a resonance in their life.
I liked the shower story. I like water and drugs too. I’ve got a couple of memories with that combination. And people ask “why do you need drugs?” Inwardly, I laugh.
In my wasted youth i used to surf stoned out of my gourd, sometimes tripping, i remember i’d come home from the graveyard shift at the local 7-11 (where my night was spent scamming the register for as much as i could pocket) at the beach where i lived and i’d crank up the hookah and then hit the water, nothing beat laying on the board and letting the ocean roll by under me, every now and then i’d try and catch a wave but it was the sound and the feel, in short it was fucking gorgeous.
It must have been lovely to be able to dive into the sea after all that. I used to take some acid with me on our family holidays to Brittany. Neither of us drive so we went by train, the overnight ferry, then train, train, bus and walk. The customs at the port are non-existent or just not interested. You could have got kilos of stuff through. But acid will never be discovered.
I used to love swimming in the sea while tripping, in the evening, with the ever-changing canvas of the sky and a low sun, and swim a long way out, laying on my back and looking up. Once day it started thundering and lightning whilst I was off my head. It was truly magical and indescribably profound. I’ve the spiritual depth of a puddle but I felt an infinitesimal part of something infinite – and it was overwhelmingly sensual too.
Then, I came back to the caravan and the girls and Kirsty were there chatting away, we had acquired some random other children from the campsite as well, there was the smell of barbeques, and the French family next door having their long tea outside. I took my book and sat in our little garden outside but couldn’t read, I was so happy.
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